Welp

I haven't written in awhile. Mainly, because I have a journal that I write in quickly and sometimes I forget that I could have just posted my thoughts here. Not much progress has been made in my life. Wait! I got in to graduate school! Boy when I tell you that it's been a long road to reach this goal. I graduated college in 2011, paid off money owed to school end of 2012, took GRE in 2014, applied to schools for a master's in International Relations in 2013; got rejected and wait listed, end of 2013 I quit my job, spring of 2014 I submitted all my applications for a different masters program and now I'll be a first year graduate student this fall! So one actually two of my goals for this year I've accomplished: getting in to grad school and getting my driver's license. All I need to do now is find a job and lose at least 15 lbs by my birthday. It's hard to keep a positive outlook on life right now because I have absolutely no money and I have to depend on my parents for everything. But, I always think it's better to stay positive then feel like complete shit. Anyway, I'm going to keep working on me. I hope someone is reading this. Leave a comment if you are. xx

Nostalgic To A Fault

I've been reading some of my old diaries and I've found myself reminiscing about events from high school and college; old romances, old friendships, etc. I thought Man, it would be great if I didn't delete my Myspace account . I would've love to be able to look back at all those old pictures read the messages. Then I remembered why I deleted it in the first place, it was my sophomore year in college(2008) and my summer fling was posting pictures of his "new" girlfriend, I got upset and decided it was best to delete it plus I used Facebook more anyway. This helped me realized one of my many flaws. I'm always quick to cut someone off without letting the situation really marinade in my mind. I can be very impulsive. Once I feel that I've been wronged my first reaction is to get rid of all communication with this person. Then I end up regretting how the situation was handled and that there was more closure. Now, I'm learning how to deal with the past and not let nostalgia keep me full of regrets. Time is moving and I don't want to play catch up. x

Almost There......

A new year is just around the bend but I'm not going to start with all that "New Year, New Me" crap. Even though I am determined to make some changes in my life I don't want to do a whole entire facelift on my life(I would if it were possible though). But, I am in the process of compiling a list of things I want to do in 2014. I'll post the list and as time goes along I'll post when I do anything mentioned on the list. That's it for now...

Prologue

This isn't my first attempt at blogging they were mostly "niche" blogs. This is, however, my first attempt at a personal blog since my Xanga days. I decided I needed to put my thoughts and feelings out into the universe and see how it works out for me. Blogging is much more different than a journal, with blogging I have a little twinge of hope that someone will read this and understand what I'm going through. Right now I'm experiencing a near quarter life crisis, 15 days away from my 24th birthday and I haven't accomplished most of what I hoped for when I was younger. College always seemed like the ultimate goal followed by a good career and some semblance of a romance. Boy, how life has thrown me for a loop. I basically spent my first year out of school working odd jobs trying to find something that would be okay for the moment. Then I did find a job and spent another year letting it consume my entire life. Now I'm resigning from that job with no backup plan because I simply can't let it consume me any longer. I wanna go to graduate school and get my masters so I never have to spend my adult life working from paycheck to paycheck stuck in a job I hate. I refuse to let that be my life. I want to be great. I want to be happy. I don't want to live life in a daze wondering when did it become winter and how did summer sneak up on me so fast. I want to enjoy every single minute of every single hour. Even it's just reading a good book or baking some muffins. I want my soul to be content.