Prologue

This isn't my first attempt at blogging they were mostly "niche" blogs. This is, however, my first attempt at a personal blog since my Xanga days. I decided I needed to put my thoughts and feelings out into the universe and see how it works out for me. Blogging is much more different than a journal, with blogging I have a little twinge of hope that someone will read this and understand what I'm going through. Right now I'm experiencing a near quarter life crisis, 15 days away from my 24th birthday and I haven't accomplished most of what I hoped for when I was younger. College always seemed like the ultimate goal followed by a good career and some semblance of a romance. Boy, how life has thrown me for a loop. I basically spent my first year out of school working odd jobs trying to find something that would be okay for the moment. Then I did find a job and spent another year letting it consume my entire life. Now I'm resigning from that job with no backup plan because I simply can't let it consume me any longer. I wanna go to graduate school and get my masters so I never have to spend my adult life working from paycheck to paycheck stuck in a job I hate. I refuse to let that be my life. I want to be great. I want to be happy. I don't want to live life in a daze wondering when did it become winter and how did summer sneak up on me so fast. I want to enjoy every single minute of every single hour. Even it's just reading a good book or baking some muffins. I want my soul to be content.